LIFE

This is a photo of the master bath

This is another one of the master bath

Here is the kitchen, I bet that was a tough one to figure out

Here is the back yard with our lovely pool

And this is the front yard, I can't wait to plant tall trees.

Things at my house are pretty crazy. Recently John and I finished our foster care licensing class (it is nice to have our Monday evenings back). We only have a little bit more paper work to do and a home inspection (after we get the home of course) then we will be licenced and have little munchkins running around. It is very exciting. You may think this should cause me stress but I am only looking forward to having little ones in our home. I feel so much peace about this it is the one decision we have recently made that we don't doubt. Purchasing a house on the other hand does give me a lot of stress.

John and I have been trying to figure out our lives these past few months, especially this past month. We had an offer on a home in Glendale. We submitted the offer Jan. 17Th and had a roller coaster relationship with that, the house was a short sale that lasted 3 months for us when we finally decided to remove our offer and look for a house closer to ASU so John can go back to graduate school without having to commute 2 hours a day while working full-time.

We had another option to move back to Utah to attend school there and work for PKU Perspectives. We both knew what we had felt about being foster parents and my heart broke every time I thought about sacrificing an opportunity to become a mother for my husband to get another degree. That may sound like I am a heartless wife but I have waited so long to be a mom and it has been my only real life long dream (besides marrying a wonderful man, check)and to be so close and have that taken away again was a lot to bear.

During our decision making process I spent many moments in conversation with my Father in Heaven. I told Him that I will go wherever is best for our family and that if John needed to go back to Utah I would follow, my only plea was that if that would be the case that He would give me the strength I needed to be a good support. Don't let this paragraph fool you, I am still not in love with Arizona, I am slowly finding nice things about this place but it isn't home just yet.

As I write this tears fall from my eyes. This decision and heart felt prayer was not an easy one to arrive to but I felt comfort in knowing that even if we made a decision that I did not feel was the best for me I knew that because Heavenly Father still loves me and He would some how make it all work out, somehow it always does. That night John and I went to the temple to do sealings. While we were there I continued to pray that I would have strength to do the things that I needed to. I felt peace. While John and I were in the Celestial room he told me that he knew we had to stay in Arizona. He didn't want to and still doesn't but he knows that we need to be foster parents here in Arizona. That Sunday we had the opportunity to fast. John was comforted in his decision that we should stay here and he was able to feel much needed peace. That evening we drove to a few homes for sale in Mesa and peeked in the windows. We found 3 houses that we were interested in looking at. Monday I called the first house and was told that it is no longer for sale but a rental. The second house was now under contract and the third house was For Sale By Owner, by process of elimination I decided to look at the third house. I called the owner and set up a time to see it, I looked at it and loved it I asked the seller if I could bring my husband by to look at it that evening, she said yes so I took John to look at the house and on Wednesday we made an offer and they accepted it. We have since had the inspection and are now waiting to hear back from the appraiser. We are hoping to lock in a rate today and we should close on or before May 15Th.