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Since there are not many who read my blog I feel it is a safe place for me to work out some of my feelings.  Growing up in a home where I was the last of 15 to be born and there was more yelling and hitting than there were kind words and hugs tends to make having a family of my own something I want to keep to myself.  I LOVE my children and I try everyday to show them.  I sacrifice my own wants for the things that will help them to become the people they were sent here to become.  My children are special!  According to 3 fertility specialists I was not supposed to be able to give birth to any children and because of that I don't feel as though I have the luxury of deciding when  to have children since I have discovered a small window in which I can conceive.
All of these words are leading up to what has been on my mind, it seems that as women and mothers there is judgement if someone doesn't do something the way you would do it.  For example: c-sections are not considered "natural birth" neither are vaginal births that are assisted with medication.  REALLY?! to me there are many ways of having a successful birth and they all seem pretty reasonable to me, isn't the "plan" to come  to earth and get a body.  Another example is how many children and how often one chooses to have children.  In reality everyone's situations are different some have tough pregnancies and some have children with needs that need more attention or maybe you have children that don't need a lot of your attention.  Some have husbands that can't be home often or some have flexible work schedules and easy church callings.  What ever your situation is it is none of my business or any else's I just wish among women and children there was less judgment and more embracing of each other.